Eye statements

I often joke with people when I say "I used an "eye-statement", there needs to be resolution now!" because I statements were big n grade school, the way to end bullying. Being short as I was, and knowing the differences made you a target, I knew I would need to learn how to talk my way out of situations. And thus grew my ability to charm and sweet talk people to get enough consideration to get away. (Also I think it's what has helped me to connect with people in a way that allows me to be friends with pretty much everybody, differences or not.)

I also have always been a push-over. I don't enjoy confrontation, mostly because I just don't have time for the ridiculousness that is involved with confrontation. I've always been taught to be the bigger person (ironic seeing as my tallest height has been 4'10", that's right folks, I am legally a midget... ahem... "little person") and to just walk away from conflict. So that is what I did. Unless a punch was thrown. I was taught to never throw the first punch, but was taught to finish it.

Recently my life has been nothing but drama and I'm done with it. I avoid drama like nothing else. I avoid it well. That being said, today I was assertive, I used those fantastic eye statements and stood up. I will not be pushed around. And if that makes me the selfish bitch that I was called, then so be it. I'm okay with being selfish. I spent the last 21 years more concerned about everyone else than me, I can take some time to take care of me. To ensure that I am okay. And I refuse to feel guilty or bad about it. Nobody else is willing to be concerned about me, and I won't allow my happiness and future suffer because of it. I have my back, and there's nothing wrong with that. I feel better about myself when I stand up for myself. No more emotional or verbal abuse for no reason. No more drama.

In other news, there was a piece of yarn in my inhaler that I inhaled... now I can't stop coughing and it hurts to breathe. Can one get aspirated pneumonia from a fragment of yarn?