Mom! Thanks for the stamps!
...are great things brought to pass. Where I tell you about the hilarious, the awkward, the stupid and the strange things that happen in my life, Much to the dismay of all who wished I would keep my mouth closed and my fingers from typing... May the odds be ever in our favor...
16 September 2013
Wet and Soggy People of Colorado
Mom! Thanks for the stamps!
02 September 2013
25 August 2013
(Brother Edit: Sorry for the delay folks, lost Dibe's info. Here's last weeks email! Her Prep days are Mondays, so, there should be a new update tomorrow or Tuesday)
05 August 2013
Another Update!
Holy cow, I'm in California!!!
20 July 2013
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14 July 2013
Lord, I believe
Things I wish I had known three months ago.
· Stop. Look around. Enjoy the ride.
• It's okay to be a prospective missionary, terrified and unsure
• It's okay to be disappointed and confused
• Satan is a jerk.
• Don't expect things to get better. They don't get easier. Satan does NOT want me to be a missionary. He will try to break me. He will not play fair or play nice.
• It's normal to wish Satan had a body so you can punch him in the throat. But hey. You have a throat. He doesn't.
• Budget your time in the beginning and you'll be fine.
• You may think Goodbyes will be easy. They won't be. Buy tissue. Cry. It's fine.
• Go to the Temple. A lot. You will find so much extra peace. Seriously. Go.
• Go again to the Temple.
• There is no such thing as praying too much. Accept that challenge. Pray a lot.
• You will feel like a huge failure. Missionaries sin too. Get back up and keep going.
• Satan knows your weaknesses. He will use them mercilessly against you.
• Don't give up. Don't quit trying. You keep walking. You keep moving ... there are blessings and help ahead. (Pssst. At the Temple!)
• lead with your faith. Trusting is hard. But it pays off. Trust Him. He's loves you.
• Spend time with family.
• Love the ride. It's a tough one, but it can be okay!
I am down to 3 days before I enter the MTC, 2 days before I fly out to Utah and one day before I get set apart. I am both terrified and so excited!
Terrified because I've never been a natural teacher. Excited because I get to learn.
Terrified because I have no idea what I'm doing.
Excited to serve the Lord.
Terrified to screw up.
Excited to get to succeed.
Terrified of things being harder than my ability to keep up.
Excited to get stronger.
Terrified of being the companion that everyone is afraid of.
Excited to have that companion that everyone loves.
Terrified to leave behind everything I know.
Excited to meet new challenges.
Terrified of not being good enough
Excited to get stronger.
I am ready to love the people of California.
I have been abundantly blessed - the Lord has placed people in my path who have eased my fears and concerns.
I am ready. Scared or not.
16 June 2013
Celebrate!!! Fathers Day!
Today is the day that we celebrate fathers.
We celebrate all that they do for us. Fathers are unsung heroes. They don't always get the praise and love they deserve.
My father wasn't there. And for a long time, that really bummed me out. It took a while for me to realize that the Lord knew that I didn't have an earthly Father figure who was biologically connected to me.
So He put so many men in my life to teach me that which I needed and wanted.
My Mom, who was both mom and dad. She taught me so much about making your own future and not getting stuck in self pity or worry. To trudge forward and do what needs to be done.
Uncle Johnny. Mom's youngest brother. He and I have always been close. Our relationship has always been special to me. He is the man that I never want to disappoint. That I always want to impress and who will always be there when I need a leg up in the world. He is one of my favorite people in the entire world.
There have been many surrogate father figures. Friends' fathers. People who have genuinely cared. For them I am grateful.
But the blessing of Fathers has reached beyond that. I work in a male-dominate career where I am both smaller than all my coworkers but not as strong. And each partner I've had, has shown me a little more about men.
Most recently, my last two partners have shown me not just how loving fathers should be, but how loving men should treat others. And how husbands should talk about their wives, when the wife isn't around.
It is a true testament to me about the love of men when I see how kind and loving men are to those around them.
So. Thank you men. Thank you for stepping up without even realizing it. Thank you for being so amazing and being such examples as to what a good man is and what a good man does.
This fathers day, I honor the fathers in my life. And I honor the men who aren't yet fathers.
Finally, for the Father in Heaven who has loved me, when I wasn't lovable. Who answered my prayers, when I had no idea what to ask for. Who never gave up on me, even when I had given up long before. For my Heavenly Father, who offered His Son, who in turn walked with me through hell, and saw me safely through to the other side (and then healed the traumas, the broken soul and the terror.) For my Heavenly Father whose only desire is to see me succeed and see me again, and offers me the path to do so. Who forgives me when I don't deserve it. And who "wastes" time on someone like me. It's hard to believe that God, the most impressive and powerful and incredible being ever, would spend even a second on someone that doesn't matter. With that logic, I must matter to Him.
I wish "thanks" were enough. Today, when I'm sorely tempted to feel sad that my father wasn't there, or that now he's dead. When I'm tempted to feel hurt that my grandfather is gone, I can't help but feel so loved by the Father who never left. Who never hurt.
I am blessed.